The Good and the Bad

The good part is that I have lot a total of 6 inches in the last 3 weeks. It makes sense when you think about the fact that all of my clothes are constantly being hiked-up. The bad part is I only lost 1/2 pound...but I am not as concerned about the number on the scale as much as I am concerned about percentage of body fat which it is too early to test...I will say with the decrease in inches that has most likely gone down as well.

Therapy is starting to make sense of things...the reason I sleep so much...is not depression so much as me not being able to shut off and actually sleep...which then causes me to run out of energy and have to re-boot if you will...one stress filled 4 days means I sleep for about the same amount of time...I really need to figure out a way to stop that...it is not condusive to living or for that matter working but it explains why I can not do 2 stressful things at a time....and to be honest it is not as bad as when I was younger.....now to figure out how to go from here, and as always I find every thing that is broken with me and try to fix it all at the same time. My mental health, my physical health and my spiritual health...and I never quite get there.

The only area of my life that seems to be without difficulty is that of my marriage...there I have discovered that we are not like most couples we love each other are happy to be each others companion and for the most part our conflict is pretty much related to our stress level and how crabby we are at any given time.